世事難懂 有時超出你我的想像 其實事實是很簡單很簡單... 是你和我都 太成熟 太複雜... 忘了 世界也可以簡單的很可愛^^ 反向思考囉...唔好諗咁多...人都舒服d 想就要做 唔好抗拒自己既思想 所以我唔會在乎外界點睇... 30 May is my another happy gathering with him He accompanied me to buy cosmetics we went to Giodano and discussed the colthes and dresses he told me i should wear sharp clothes and dresses.... i replied that i won't wear any dresses in front of him cos he drives motor bike we went to NaRaya and had a discussion on which bags i should bought at last i bought two... cos his insight was good ...i admit that we went to Manchester's boutique and buy scarfs personally, i did not like to go to boutique selling sportswear at this moment, i start thinking: he didn't like to go to cosmetics shop, he may not like to go to GioDano and NaRaya BUT, he did all.. cos i like to shop those places.......why he did all these stupid things? When he carried all my belongings, i suddenly wonder why he takes all the bags for me? even i have shopping with my old friends, they never did.... he was so strange, wasn't he ? the day before gathering, he got nth to do.... and at last he was accompanying me to shopping...? He chose a place where i wanted to go for a long time, though i did not tell him ....... He satisfied all my needs and wants .... but .. did i satisfy his needs and wants ? what was his needs ? what was his wants? May be , he just wants a person to accompany him for a while , till Grass comes back May be, he just needs an ordinary friend who can accompany him, chat with him during weekends we went to Ta Li Lai and take pork chop bread we went to buy Tai Choi Go and icecream Finally we took a rest in Casas - Museu da Taipa we shared the Tai Choi Go and icecream we talked and talked It was so just so comfortable to be with him HE MAKES ME CONFUSED I hide myself, i give him a lot of excuses still, he never give me up why............................? sometimes, i think: if things continue, what will happen who hurts at the end ? probably me ...not parobably...MUST be me If i know this is the only outcome, why should i still continue to do stupid things? i am greedy, i wanna enjoy all the things he did for me till now , he still calls me "大婆" i am wrong, i really did sth wrong, i steal other's bliss i am painful.... i am also tired of this game... he is the only winner and she and i will only be the chess | 
